The sin of Assumption
This all happened during the period between 2010 – 2012.
During a period of 6 months, various accusations against my character and integrity started to surface from a key person within the project group, and very shortly carried further by another pastor and friend of mine from the USA (who also was involved with the research and compilation phase and a member of this Organization). Although I tried to resolve the issue on hand, it just went from bad to worse and he finally decided to fire me and our Group from the projects. (Forming your own assumptions based upon written communication from someone else is very dangerous, as we loose at least 80% of the real message via our body language and tone of voice being missing).
Me and my wife was completely stunned! How could this happen – now of all times – and how could he do this to me as a friend and co-worker in Christ? I have offered my congregation up to another pastor with the commitment not to return and my wife has accepted a voluntary package from her company due to the promises of the funding to “come through shortly” and also to save another person at her company from being retrenched. This decision could not come in a more worse situation than now!
That is putting it mildly! We were shaken to the core of our faith and really went through a Job experience where it felt that we have lost everything in life. I did not receive an income of any sort and my wife had just lost her job and the savings from her retrenchment would run out within two months. We were already on a knife’s edge to loose our house due to our own personal financial situation ( I lost my business due to the recession) and it was and is only by the grace of God that we haven’t lost it – at that point in time or still today. But that is a testimony on its own.
We were extremely devastated as our dreams and hopes for our ministry were smashed on the whim and assumptions of one or two people. We read and re-read the email where the words stated that we were now “excluded” from the projects – even though we have put so many hours and personal funds into this process. I started to doubt my calling for the ministry and the power of my prayers. I doubted my experience to hear the voice of God or at least to know when we are on the right track or not. I traced back my steps in this whole process to find out where did we go wrong – where did we not hear the voice of warning from the Lord as I have asked Him so many times in the beginning – to warn me if this is just another scam or if this is not His will for me or our Group? But nothing of the kind!
I could only remember one night in Venda, South Africa, right in the beginning when the scope of the project started to dawn on me. I specifically asked God to protect us from greed, to protect us from running on a wild goose chase and to be able to focus on the needs of the people – the communities in the rural areas. At that moment in time, I felt God reminded me again of a promise He has given me in 2007:
“ For God’s Son, Jesus Christ, who was preached among you by us-by me, Silvanus, and Timothy-was not “Yes” and “No.” But with him it is always “Yes.” For all God’s promises are “Yes” in him. And so through him we can say “Amen,” to the glory of God. (2Co 1:19-20 –ISV)
And that settled it – I believed that this process was the complete and perfect will of God! So, how can one person or more interfere with the plan of God?
Please follow the next delivery of this important message and lessons to be learned from how to deal with disappointment.