Hope Farm Discipleship Training & Outreach: May 2014

To God all the glory and praise for His grace and provision to be able to continue the work of His Gospel in the Tshipise valley.  As the Lord provides, we drive up every second month to this new church that we have planted there a year ago, in order to equip and strengthen the brothers and sisters in the Lord with the Word of God as well as sound teaching in becoming disciples of Christ.

On Friday afternoon the 16th May 2014, my wife Venetia and I and Past Chris Smit and his wife Marinda left Pretoria and arrived late at night at the Tshipise Resort in the far northern part of Limpopo Province.   Marinda was very anxious due to all the stories that friends and even pastor Chris told her about the rural area and what she can expect of going to Venda to proclaim the Gospel.  Apparently she had all sorts of “visions” of dangerous animals and even the people in the rural area which provided much laughter to our group.

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Past Chris opened the training session on Saturday morning and taught about discipleship, the  importance of it and that it meant you have to be a servant and not being served. 

I followed it up with another teaching on Acts 20: 18 – 24; where Paul said he served the Lord with all humility and with tears and with trials – which happened through the plots of the Jews. 

 Serving God and especially on the level where you go out to proclaim the Gospel to a dying world, or even just being a witness at your local church or work environment or circle of friends, it will contain to some extent these elements of “tears” and “trials”. Even if they are brought about by your own people, as in the case of Paul, it should not stop us from testifying to everyone of repentance toward God and of our faith in our Lord Jesus Christ (verse 21).

Being a child of God means we need to be disciples and that means we need to testify about our faith and also our faith experiences in Christ.  Our tears and trials and tribulations bring about new testimonies through which our faith is strengthened.  We  should therefore talk about it and give God all the Glory!

We concluded the training later in the day by handing out new Bibles to all the potential leaders and disciples in Christ.

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Afterwards we drove about 30 -40 km’s to meet with another pastor and her husband in a nearby village in Venda.   This meeting left our group in tears and in awe of the devoutness and love these two wonderful people have for the Lord Jesus Christ and His Gospel.  They have offered up the bricks that were supposed to complete their own home, to start a new ministry on a barren piece of land. She even sold her second car to be able to pay for the steel beams that would form the basic support structure of the new church.  Will this be a big church? Yes, most definitely it will be as big as the vision she has for this area and therefore the church will also be smack between two or more villages to serve more than one community.

 Hope Training May 2014 367When we look in the flesh we do not see any floor, walls or roof at this moment, but when we look through the eyes of faith and when we look upon our God who declares that all things are possible through Him, then we already start to hear the music and the choirs lifting up the name of the Lord Jesus Christ in this place.

Why worry about floors when we are standing on the Rock of our faith! Why worry about a roof if He covers and shields us from any harm?  Praise God for He is the Jehovah Jireh – the Lord who provides in all of our needs.   I know He will also provide for this church to be completed.

The Sunday morning Pastor Chris continued the teaching at Hope Farm and also reiterated the fact that someone needs to sow the seed, another would water it but God will let it grow.  Thereafter we had the privilege to baptize another 6 people in the wonderful name of Jesus Christ for the remission of all their sins.  The water was so very COLD but later on Pastor Chris reflected about this one young man who came to the service in his best Sunday clothes and only removed his shoes to be baptized in the muddy waters of a nearby pond.  He did not think twice about his clothes as the baptism was much more important for him.

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Despite all the tears and trials these people have to face on a daily basis, they are still eager to hear a Word of God and to follow in His footsteps.  They lift up their voices and sing in harmony without the luxury of any musical instruments as their own voices and hands are the best instruments they want to use in praising the living God.

We can learn so much from their humbleness and their zeal to really serve the Lord.   The Church needs to come back to the basics of serving God again!  It is not about you or me or the grand band who plays the best music in the world.  It is not about the seats in the auditoriums and the best sound systems.  It is not about the “anointed preachers and their prophetic words”.  It is ALL about Jesus Christ and what He has done for you and me.  It is all about my and your relationship with the King of kings.  And when we are in that close relationship, nothing else matters.  Then it becomes our privilege to offer to Him all our praises and adoration.

My God each day I still stand in awe of You!

I also would like to thank our sponsors who made this trip possible for us – without you it will not be possible to do so and through your donations and prayers you will also have a part in each and every soul brought into the Kingdom of God.

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Conquering Disappointment

Conquering Disappointment” is die tweede boek wat ek onlangs gefinaliseer het.  Dit hanteer die proses en emosies waardeur ons gaan wanneer teleurstelling en trauma ons pad langs kom.

Dit bevat ook ‘n persoonlike getuienis en praktiese stappe hoe om dit te kan verwerk.  Die boek bespreek ook die aspek of ons “kan/moet vra vir vergifnis van God”, of is daar ‘n ander skrif rondom dit.

Indien jy belangstel om dit te bekom en te lees, inboks my met jou detail vir ‘n e-kopie daarvan.

Conquering Disappointment” deals with the process and emotions that we go through when we are faced with disappointment and even trauma.

The book also contains a personal testimony as well as the steps to overcome the disappointment in our lives.  The book also discuss the concept whether we “need to ask for forgiveness from God”, or is there another scripture in this regard.

If you are interested to read it, please inbox me with your email address and I will forward you an e-copy of the book.    

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The Trojan horse is IN the Church – now in book form.

 “The Trojan horse is IN the Church“. Ek het onlangs twee boeke klaar geskryf. Die eerste boek deel met die valse profesiee wat al geruime tyd in die Kerk asook op Facebook versprei word.  Hierdie profesiee kom nie van God af nie en skep vals hoop en is niks anders as “spiritual horoscopes”.  Dit deel ook met al die “gimmicks” wat al in die Kerk omgewing toegelaat is agv die afwesigheid van die Gees van God.

Die vyand is besig om die Kerk van binne af aan te val met die Kerk se eie arsenaal van wapens, soos oa die gawe van Profesie.

Indien jy belangstel om dit te bekom en te lees, inboks my met jou e-mail adres.

“The Trojan horse is IN the Church“.   I have recently completed two books of which the first one deals with the false prophecies spoken in the Church and being circulated on Facebook, etc.  These prophecies are not from God and create only false hope and constitute to nothing more than a “spiritual horoscope”.   Do not be deceived by good words and the good news syndrome.  Even if it sounds right, it does not mean to be right and from God.  It also deals with the gimmicks in Church due to the absence of the Holy Spirit.

The enemy is launching the attack on the Church from the inside and is using its own arsenal of weapons – such as the prophetic gifts – against the Church.

To find out more about this subject, please inbox me with your email detail and I will forward you a copy of the book.






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Interim program for 2014: Update

The year 2014 has started off so fast and we are already in the beginning of February.  Our latest Newsletter is available and if you are interested in receiving one via our mailing list, please complete the box below with your email address.

Last weekend we have concluded a successful training mission of the leaders from the new church, which we have planted last year on the Hope Farm in the Tshipise Valley of Limpopo. Praise the Lord that He protected us and provided in all our needs and that the church is still going strong despite all the circumstances.

We have also launched our Pretoria Bible College Campus on Wednesday evening (5 February) and this year it will run in conjunction with the local congregation of Pastor Gert Steenkamp at the Hercules High School (Gateway Youth Centre).  Formal classes will be conducted for 1st year and 2nd year students and anybody who is still interested can attend classes on Wednesday evenings from 19:00. 

The new Middelburg Campus will be launched this coming Saturday (8 February) with an open day from 10:00 to 12:00 for potential students to come and register.  We already have 21 registered students for this campus and we are so excited to start the classes every second Saturday of each month.

A word of encouragement: Stay at the feet of the Lord Jesus, as He is faithful and true.  Do not be deceived with all the “new” revelations of doctrine, but test everything against the Word of God.  Praise Him and worship Him with all of your heart, mind and soul. Jesus Christ is worth it.


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Congratulations are in order

When the National Senior Certificate (Matric) results of South Africa were announced in the beginning of this year, two parents were ever so very proud of the achievement of their son, Shammah.

Pastor Toby and his wife Linneth Nqwenya from our newest Galilee International Ministries congregation in Mhluzi, Middelburg, are the proud parents of Ntokozo Shammah Ngwenya who achieved no less than 7 distinctions in his final exams.

What makes his achievement even more spectacular is that 5 of them are in the 90’s, of which 3 were even above the 97% mark!  He was also crowned the 2nd overall best student of the Mpumalanga Province.  With subjects such as Mathematics (98%) and Physical Sciences (94%) he can now look forward to starting his studies in Mechanical Engineering at Wits University this year.

First of all we would like to congratulate Past Toby and his wife Linneth as well as Shammah on this achievement and second of all wish him all the best for the years to come.  We pray that the Lord Jesus Christ will guide him through his further studies and that He will protect him in this new adult world that he will be entering soon.

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InZpired for today

Rom 4:20-25 (ESV) –  “No distrust made him (Abraham) waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised.  That is why his faith was “counted to him as righteousness.” 

Abraham is considered as the father of faith as he believed God unconditionally.  The above scripture declare that he was ” fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised.”   That is exactly where we need to be in our relationship with God:

  • to grow strong in our faith;
  • to be fully convinced;
    • No questions asked and no other options searched for;
    • “the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen” (Heb 11:1)
    • When we cannot help ourselves and nobody else can or is willing to do so, that is when God can specialize in the miraculous;
    • Through faith He can be God in our lives;
  • that God was able to do what He had promised”
    • I had a sticker on my car years ago:

      “God said it, I believed it. That settled it!” 

History shows that God has delivered on all of His promises in the life of Abraham and many other people.  He IS still able to do the same for you and me today.  All it takes is to be fully convinced – without seeking other man-made options – that He can deliver on His promises.  Do you need peace, protection, deliverance from bondage and fear,  healing,  a new job, a breakthrough in relationships, restoration of your marriage – it does not matter what your need is today because God is able to do far beyond what you may think or even pray about. And this is a promise from the Word of God.

  • Eph 3:20 (ESV) – Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us,

 Apply it in your life today being fully convinced (having faith) He will come through for you. I know He will do so if you seek Him in faith : because He did it for me and still do so every day.


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Dealing with disappointment – a personal testimony Part 9.


Forgiveness is part of life – so enjoy the journey!


Coming back to our teaching on handling disappointment:

Everything in life is based upon choices.  You can choose to remain in a bad attitude or to change it.  You can choose to be miserable the best part of your life, our change it.  Our choices in life determine a great deal the final outcome of things in our lives.  I said to many people in the past that they are the “architect of their own set of problems” – and some of them even the builders of it as well.

You see the very fact that we do have a choice in things; we can choose to get out of this circle of Job and start to refocus our attention on Christ and His purpose in our lives, or not and remain in this vicious circle of bitterness and depression until we do not know what is right and wrong anymore.  I have experienced people more than once during counseling sessions where it seems that they prefer to stay in this negative circle because the problems sort of define their miserable lives.  They love to receive the pity and attention from other people and will not know how to deal with joy and freedom in Christ.

“Who is the man who fears the LORD? Him will he instruct in the way that he should choose.” Psa 25:12- ESV) 

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Look at the model on the left and find the contact point of the third circle (Job syndrome) with the second circle and you will find one word; Acceptance. 


Let me be quite open and honest with you today.  NOTHING is going to change, not before you can learn to accept things in life.  I am not talking about being a pushover now and that you have to accept everything that is thrown at you.  No absolutely not.  But look at the principles of the well-known Serenity prayer: (In my own paraphrasing)


  • There are things that you can avoid or change – have the courage to do so;
  • Then we have the things that we cannot avoid or do anything about it;
    • These are the things in life that we have to accept and learn how to deal with it;
  • And the wisdom to distinguish between the two.

Acceptance of the situation also brings relief. It brings a sense of being set free from the situation so that you can now deal with it from a different point of view.  Let me give you an example:

  • If you are being retrenched from your company, what benefit or good will it have for you to keep on fighting against this process?
  • Will the company change their criteria to suite you, or will they continue regardless of your attempts and grievances?
  • The choice that you make to fight the retrenchment process could end up in bitterness, self-pity, destruction and even unemployment for a long time.
  • But, on the other hand; acceptance releases you from the pain of the retrenchment process and enables you to refocus on the future and to find secure employment even before your retrenchment period expires. Meaning that you could have the benefit of double earnings for a few months (that is from the retrenchment package as well as from the new employment package).
 So, accept the things that you cannot change
because through your acceptance
you will change quite a lot about the situation itself.

Forgive the people involved as described in the previous post.  Rededicate yourself to the Lord and begin to praise and worship Him for everything in your life.  Through these steps it will bring you to the next and new point where Jesus can deal with you.  And this brings me back to my original scripture in Hebrews:

  • All these people died having faith. They did not receive the things that were promised, yet they saw them in the distant future and welcomed them, acknowledging that they were strangers and foreigners on earth. Heb 11:13
  • All these people won approval for their faith but did not receive what was promised, since God had planned something better for us so that they would not become perfect without us. Heb 11:39 -40 ISV)  

You see, God has planned something better for us when we go through trials and tribulations.  Although we do not see it from the beginning, He always works with a plan and the outcome will be for our benefit, because He love us.  And YES, it is your choice if you:

  • want to see it in the distant future and welcome it;
  • And if you want to embrace it with faith and love;

As soon as we accept the situations and disappointments in life and make the right choice, then God can continue this life changing process by building in us the following:

  • Faith and Trust – It is only through trials and tribulations that we learn to truly trust the Lord and Him alone!
  • New character & Love – His character to minister and witness to other people
  • Relationship building – to be more intimate with Him!
  • New vision and hope – He brings new wisdom and insight;
  • New power – new power in the Holy Spirit through faith.

These last two verses from the Word captures it all:

“Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.  Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us”. Rom 5:1-5 –KJV)

“So, what a blessing when God steps in and corrects you! Mind you, don’t despise the discipline of Almighty God! Job 5:17 –MSG) 

See the disappointment and trauma not as a curse or as the wrath of God upon your life, but rather see it as small corrections and as an upgrade to a higher level.  All the more so if it is a major situation where you even fear for your own life and safety (where you could lose everything in a moment),  accept it as a major upgrade and because the Lord knows you and expects you to deal with the situation and come out triumphantly at the end.

Remember, the Gospel of Jesus Christ is a practical Gospel and you can only find the blessing from it when you apply it to your life.

Do the right thing, make the right choices, forgive and be blessed to be a blessing!

This was now the final delivery of this teaching and I trust that it would make the same impact in your life as it has in mine.  Forward it to someone you know who is also struggling with disappointment so that you can make a difference in his/her life and praise God for His mercy and grace.


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Dealing with disappointment – a personal testimony Part 8

Where do I begin to deal with disappointment and trauma?

Everything starts and ends with choices we make. It also concerns our attitudes towards the problem that we need to deal with.  You have to do this on your own as the Lord will not interfere with our free will.  Here is a quick step guideline:

  • Deal with the situation and also the emotions with faith.  Bind it in faith and in the name of Jesus Christ so that it will no longer have a negative effect on you. Use the tools from the Word of God.  Deal with the three aspects of the trauma and disappointment:
    • The event itself;
    • The pain and emotions linked to it;
    • The shame or any negative cloud that may overwhelm you 
  • Repent where necessary and receive forgiveness. From God and man.
  • Forgive and set people free from any wrong doing so that you can be set free.
  • Even forgive God if you experience bitterness or resentment towards Him.
  • Forgive yourself of the bad choices you have made in the past.
  • Refocus on your relationship and service in the Lord and sort out any negative attitude.  Start to worship and praise the Lord and get involved with positive things.
  • Make a positive choice not to allow any negative feelings/emotions to stay attached to you.  Allow the Spirit of God to guide you through this process especially when you have to forgive someone of wrong doing.

Personal Testimony of the power of forgiveness:

A couple of months after the  Lord has given me this lesson on how to handle disappointment, my first test came when I had to forgive and set the people free that was part and parcel involved in this whole process. (Refer to Part 1 and 2 of this series)

Due to the distance between us, they being in the USA and myself in South Africa, I decided to write them a personal letter of forgiveness.  But looking back and reading the letter again, I can only now sense that the pain and bitterness of the whole event was still very much being embedded in that letter.  At least it has set the process starting and it did clear my mind and thoughts to some extent.

My brother in the Lord from the USA came through to South Africa earlier in the year, and we arranged for a meeting.  The first meeting did not go well at all and somewhere during this time we spend together, we just traded “spiritual blows” to one another and accusations of mutual wrong doings. At least we could agree that we should have another meeting before he leaves for the USA again.

The night before our second meeting, my wife asked me if I am ready for this meeting the following morning.  I said yes and no.  YES, I am prepared with all of my emails that I have send to him over the last 2 years as proof of my innocence, but NO I am not spiritually ready to talk to him.  At that moment in time I was still geared up and willing to “wring his neck” so as to speak because of the pain and disappointment that we (and so many other people as well) experienced through his decision to terminate our involvement in the Foundation projects.

Even though I had forgiven him nearly a year before, I knew that I still had a problem in this regard the moment when the real test of forgiveness came.  The Lord has dealt with me numerous times on the point of forgiveness, to such an extent that I think I can now write the manual on it.  But each and every time, He takes it a bit further and deeper.  Later in this teaching you will find out why He does it!

At our early morning meeting, we exchanged courteous greetings and ordered breakfast. It is also a good way to start off such a meeting as it settles the emotions and brings a sense of “forced peace”, because we are sitting in a public place and therefore have to act like civilized people. Right at that moment in time, the Lord clearly showed me the problem on hand of the danger to form assumptions. Usually our assumptions are all wrong as it is formed from our sub-conscious, and if that is negative or prone to be negative from past experiences, then the very next one to be formed, will be wrong as well.  Right at that moment I experienced the awesome power from the Lord where He equips and empowers you to deal with a specific situation.  When we ask and then also allow Jesus to be present in our lives in all situations, He always comes through for us at the right time. It was like a flood of His love and peace and through the power of His Spirit, I could look my brother in the eye and first of all acknowledge for who he is in the Lord and what I have learned from him and his ministry during our years of fellowship.  I praised the Lord for our previous fellowship and also blessed him in his future ministry.  Thereafter he also did the same and we stood up and greeted each other with a good hug. When I left, I felt at complete peace with him again and with myself.  I also knew I was only now ready for a new beginning in my ministry.

The Power of forgiveness:

Never do underestimate the power of forgiveness.  When you can forgive someone else, you are becoming Christ-like.  But I must add – forgive unconditionally!  We cannot hold anything back. When you are able to do this, you are experiencing exactly the same emotions and compassion that Jesus did as He forgave the people who crucified Him.  “Father, forgive them, for they don’t know what they are doing” Luke 23:34 (NLV)  We  so easily sing that the Lord should change us, to be more and more like Jesus, but when we come to this point where we have to forgive someone who do not deserve it, then it becomes very difficult. 

I usually mention it to people who need to forgive other people, that forgiveness and grace are the two most unfair words in this world.  Because you have to give it to people who do not deserve it!  Sometimes we like to move back under the LAW – “an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth”.  We want so desperately to give pain for pain and injustice received.  Unfortunately history shows that this method is not the solution – it only enlarges the problem and starts a process off which we can call: “The vicious circle”.  And when this happens, nobody would be the winner. The fight and personal attacks would only get bigger like a consuming fire and it will destroy all involved.  The only thing that will change is the methods, the level of attack and the pain growing bigger. Eventually people in a marriage will then split when they run out of ammo – meaning they do not have any new strategy of attack that they can launch at each other.  When this happens, they tend to stay bitter and angry at each other for many years which negatively affects the children from the marriage.   

What is the point to forgive someone from a wrong doing if he/she deserves it? Then it is not forgiveness through grace anymore!  The Lord usually deals with the offended party to give the forgiveness to the offender who does not deserve it! The same what He did to you and me! He has forgiven us even when we did not know Him and most of all did not deserve it!

So next time when the lord speaks to you to forgive, listen up and do it with everything you have in you.  You can follow this simple process:

  • Write a letter to the Lord Jesus and explain the whole incident(s) to Him.  Yes, I know it sounds stupid because He already knows everything, but the thing is it will help you to remember every fine bit of the event(s) and the pain and emotions involved;
  • Write everything that is in your heart as if you are now speaking to the Lord about the problem and the pain it has caused you;
  • When you are finished, then pray about each incident and person involved.  Forgive each one by name by just simply stating that you “forgive so and so in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ for this specific event or incident” that has taken place in your life.
  • Speak up in an audible voice as you would speak to another person because you also need to hear the words that you are now forgiving this person in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and is setting him/her free.
  • If you still experience bitterness or any other negative emotions or thoughts about someone, then repeat the prayer and say the words of forgiveness again, until you can feel the flood of love and peace coming through;
  • If you have been molested or even raped by another person, or a relationship or a marriage has ended in a bitter divorce settlement, it would also be wise to cut the soul ties with this person.  This is also only a prayer away where you acknowledge the soul tie between you and the other person, and then cut it “through the power of the Holy Spirit and with the Sword of the Word in the name of Jesus Christ.”  You can also do further study on this topic or write to us by leaving a comment in the box below and we will provide you with more info.   
  • Allow the Spirit of God to lift up any other incident or situation that you need to deal with.  Forgive and set people free and you will also be set free through this process.
  • When you are finished, then you need to deal with the emotions and the pain. Ask the Lord Jesus to take it away and fill you with His love.
  • Deal with the shame of any situation by giving it up to the Lord. Turn your shame into a testimony so that the stronghold from Satan on you through the shame can be broken off.  Once you have confessed your sins and mistakes, then accept the forgiveness of God.  It is a done deal. If you confess, He forgives!  (1 John 1:9-10)
  • Then – go and burn that piece of paper (the letter that you wrote) as it is all gone and forgotten.  Do not keep a copy on your computer.
  • Refocus on a new vision to serve the Lord.  Write it down if you want to and keep it to track your new progress.

My advice to you is that you first go through this process as described above before you want to speak to a person who you feel is at fault.  Get your thoughts straight and your heart in line with God.  Do not:

  • Expect a desired result from this that the person(s) involved will all of a sudden now confess their wrongdoings against you.  In most cases the people involved do not understand forgiveness and therefore will not even give you the time of day. They could even go further and try to upset you by saying something stupid or degrading again;
  • Do not allow your emotions to run wild and lead you; Stay focused and do what needs to be done;
  • Try to weigh or measure your fault against the other parties fault as this is a futile exercise.  Forgiveness means to release the other party from all guilt and wrongdoing irrespective of the size or volume of it.
  • Allow yourself to be pulled in by the other party in another fight or mudslinging.  In some cases they will even try to attack your “Christian-ship” by pointing out flaws in your life.  Remember, if you have repented your sins before God, then your ARE forgiven and NOBODY has the right to dig them out again.  Confess your wrongdoings to the other party where necessary but merely as a recognition of the fact and that it belongs to the past, because you have been forgiven by God already and therefore the party in question should also now forgive you.  If they don’t want to then it would remain to be their problem and not yours anymore.

Go and forgive someone.  Get rid of the bitterness and negative emotions.  Forgiveness will set you free in more ways than one.  It will completely change your life and circumstances.  It will even save your marriage and you will be blessed.  There is a slogan that reads: Life is a journey!  But I want to change it to:

Forgiveness is part of life – so enjoy the journey!




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Dealing with Disappointment – a personal testimony! (Part 7)

I apologize for the delay in the posting of the final posts on this important matter, but here we are now.

Once again (with reference to the previous post – Part 6):

  • DO NOT park on the negative issues ;
  • Or return to them,
  • Because then you could fall into a vicious circle of going through the negative emotions continually.  
  • And it will destroy you!

The second circle of events (which created the trauma and disappointment) leads you to the third circle, which I have termed:

The Job syndrome (or Satan’s territory).

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Due to the immense pain and disappointment, you could easily slip into the next phase of emotions, such as:

  • Withdrawal;
  • Self-pity;
  • Fear;
  • Distrust;
  • Backsliding;
  • Covering up your pain with false joy;
  • Losing faith
  • Depression;
  • Bitterness;
  • Hatred;
  • Suicidal – that is exactly where Satan wants you to be! Even if you only regret the day you were born, you are now on dangerous territory.

Do yourself a favor and read through the Book of Job.  See and experience the pain and despair that he went through, but in the end it was his own attitude and self-pity that has prolonged the process that God wanted to achieve in his life.  Even his own friends told him that it was easy for him to provide guidance and advice to other people in the city due to his wisdom, but now that he was in his own pain and predicament, he could not listen to anybody else or to apply what he taught other people.

We all know the phrase: “Practice what you preach”!  And YES – it is the most difficult thing to apply in our own lives. Especially for pastors and other lay-preachers who are busy with counseling and deliverance.  Most of the time the pastors do not have a friendly ear to speak to or to receive counseling and advice from, because who can you trust out there?  First of all, you dare not speak to anybody in the congregation about your problem or pain, because it will run through the congregation like a wild fire.  Other pastors will think less of you, even while they are dealing with the same issues on hand.  They would rather avoid you and refrain from contact than to be there as a friend who would listen and thereafter provide you with sound advice and support.

Notwithstanding any of the above, I have also learned some valuable lessons in this regard and one of them is that the Lord wants us to deal with specific issues in our lives completely on our own – while He is always watching and guiding and protecting!

Let’s take the aspect of Trust in the Lord.  Everyone would say they have faith in the Lord Jesus – but do you also TRUST Him with everything in your life?  And you cannot pray to receive Trust, or study about it.  You have to earn it on your own and through your own experiences.  This is a one-man show with God being the Director of the play.  You receive the test through various trials and tribulations and you learn to trust the Lord purely because there is nothing and nobody else who can (or want to) help you.  This is when you learn to push your faith in front of reality – where the reality of things does not scare you anymore.  Your faith and trust in the Lord needs to became greater than the fear that tries to overwhelm you.  Also read Jeremiah 17:5 – 10 and see the difference between the two scenarios.

Your faith and trust in the Lord needs to become greater

than the fear and reality of the situation

that tries to overwhelm you!

In our situation, we had to trust the Lord completely to not loose our house and all other assets due to the untimely closure of my construction business.   At one stage we were already 30 months behind in payments and the only thing I could do with the summonses from the Bank, was to put in into my Bible at a specific verse and pray about it.  I had to give my problem to the Lord and then trust Him completely to give me a favorable outcome.  And I mean completely because there was no other plan, option or man who could help me.  And the Lord prevailed as we did not loose our house or any other asset, for He is good and faithful.   He is worthy to be trusted because He is no man that could lie.

You know, it is nothing short than a miracle from God when He pushes the reality of a specific situation to the back when we allow faith and trust in Him to reign in our lives.  He specializes in the impossible and nothing is too hard for Him.  If He could let the sun go back ten degrees upon the prayer of one man (2Ki 20:10), what will He not do for you?

The last delivery on this teaching will follow tomorrow. 




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Dealing with Disappointment – a personal testimony! (Part 6)

Let’s look at the following diagrams that the Lord revealed to me about this whole process.  The Word of God says in Ps 23:3 – He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake”

The Hebrew word for “paths” also refers to circles – like life circles of a tree when cut down. Everything in life exists in systems and processes and we go through seasons/ cycles.  Some are good and some are not so good.  But all seasons make the tree stronger to survive.  The problem on hand that we have to face and to address, is the fact that the Church of today is either busy with “condemnation preaching” or “preaching the “good news syndrome”.  With the latter I am referring to the prosperity preaching of churches and pastors who only deal with the “good news” and promises.  They preach and prophecy to their congregations that everything will just be fine when you believe and serve the Lord and provide promises from the Word as if it is a prophecy from God.

When we look at the first circle of life, everything looks fine and there is absolutely no problem on hand: (This is now based upon someone who became born again in Christ): Life seems to be a continuous circle of blessings and favor and relationship in Christ.

The X factor1



Is this real life or is it just a figment of our imagination of how it should be? BUT what happens in between when it seems everything is going wrong? What happens when it feels God has dumped you on another circle of life – a circle of pain and suffering. A circle of disappointment?  Now this is exactly where the rubber hits the road.



Remember, disappointment comes in all shapes, sizes and forms.  It also includes trauma such as an unfaithful spouse, divorce, sickness, even death of a loved one, and these days also crime related activities such as a high jacking or armed robbery.   All such things could lead to us feeling disappointed in God and in our fellow man due to the specific situations on hand.  There is a saying that there are only three things in this life that we can be sure of:

  • Death
  • Taxes
  • Change – which of course brings good times but sometimes also disappointment.
    • But I would also like to add another one: We can still be sure of our Lord and Savior for He cares for us!

Therefore we need to learn how to deal with disappointment in our lives.  We have to do it ourselves through the lessons that we learn in the process. And believe me, God is the very Author of it all as He would like to see us come through this as a stronger and wiser child of Him and with more faith.  We need to not only have faith in Him, but also to trust Him completely!

 The X factor 2

In this model with the second circle, we find what I call the “crossing factor”.  There is a fine line between “blessing” and “loss”, between “joy” and “disappointment”.  And we are being forced through our lives to cross over on the second circle for a purpose.  We are sort of compelled to travel on a similar road as Job.  Nobody would chose such a road of suffering, as the trauma and disappointment could be devastating.  It feels like there is just no way out! When will it all stop now?

BUT –  in the end your disappointments and trauma could become a testimony (like mine and my wife’s).  Your testimony could reach someone else who also goes through the same or similar experiences as yourself, which will motivate them to keep on going and to keep the faith.  Dr Bruce Wilkinson recently made the following statement in a seminar that I attended:

“Your giants are a gift from God.  The bigger the giant, the bigger the miracle. The bigger the miracle, the bigger the glory to God.” Therefore, the giants, the trauma and the disappointments we face, all serve to be a platform for Glory to God and a testimony for us.

I also would like to tell you, that it is not so easy to just tell people “to get over their disappointments”it is not so simple as just that.  People who would say this have not yet experienced true disappointment or trauma in their lives.

How do I deal with disappointment then?

  • Do I have specific steps that I can follow?
  • What about all these emotions that overwhelm me?
  • What can I ignore or reject?

Once again, lets look at Scripture:

In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith–more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire–may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls. (1Pe 1:6-9 ) 

This verse drives me up the walls when I read that we will be grieved by various trails to test the genuineness of our faith and to obtain the salvation of our souls, which should be the final and ultimate outcome of our faith.  So, we have good news and some bad news:

  • Even if you are a child of God, you cannot escape bad things happening to you;
  • But the victory is on hand and God will never forsake you;
  • YES – absolutely we pay some “school fees” in the learning process and sometimes we have to experience the same learning process more than once.

The X factor 3

When you go through this negative loop, you will experience the same emotions of shock, denial and retreat, anger, disappointment before you will acknowledge the loss. It seems that there is just no other focus.  Why do I feel so miserable? Why do I feel I want to ring someone’s neck – just to feel better? Will this ever stop or not? What must I do?

Believe me when you are in this situation you do not feel capable or even willing to pray.  It feels as if your mind and thoughts are shut up and you cannot focus straight on anything positive.  But the lesson is to learn that the emotions you are going through are normal.  It is embedded in you to deal and to cope with the situation on hand. Unfortunately these emotions are negative and not based upon faith .

No Parking 1


The main thing to remember is that you should not park on any of these negative emotions, as it could destroy you and your faith.

DO NOT PARK or dawdle on any of these emotional stations such as shock, denial and retreat, anger, disappointment and even the acknowledgement of the loss – because the latter could result in a pity party.  If you do not deal with the situation and the emotions in faith, you will then slide to the third circle in life – which I call “the Job experience” or “Satan’s territory” .

You will experience the same type of emotions and pity parties and accuse everybody around you of wrong doings, except than to look at your own.  The danger of falling and staying on this circle of life, is that you could end up with extreme bitterness, lack of faith, hatred and even despair and depression, up to the point where you would even consider taking your own life.  And that is exactly the place where Satan wants you to be in the process to fulfill his plan to destroy you (John 10:10), while God intends the process to be one of building you up in faith.  On this circle, we have the same scenario as what we call “the groove and grave scenario”.  You can quite easily get stuck in the same old rut – day in and day out. The only difference between the same old rut (groove) and a grave, is the depth of it.

 So roll up your sleeves, put your mind in gear, be totally ready to receive the gift that’s coming when Jesus arrivesDon’t lazily slip back into those old grooves of evil, doing just what you feel like doing. You didn’t know any better then; you do now. (MSG 1Pe 1:13 – 14)

When we look at the second circle again, which brought about the shake up and disappointment, then we see something else.  When we look in faith and in the Word of God, then we see the purpose of God through this all.  Therefore I call this circle the “Faith Experiences” .  When you encounter personal experiences and profundities with God, it is like a spiritual marker in our lives. This is where:

  • You learn the lessons to help others;
  • The Lord lays a foundation of faith and trust to keep and support you;
  • He builds character and integrity in you;

And this process is not something to fear, but to embrace because it is also here where you will grow spiritually far more than on the first normal circle of life.  It is right here where God will reveal new revelations and teachings to you what nobody else have even heard of.  If you want to know more about the Lord Jesus Christ and want more of His character, you will go through these type of learning experiences .  It is God’s way of building His character and will in us.

Someone said the following:

“The depth and width of your faith experiences are directly proportional to your calling.”





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